The Death of My Heart.

The death of my heart means the birth of new hatred.
Apple has seriously torn and smashed my initial tiny bit of hope in love.
my only trust in humanity is now smashed and has vanished.
suelin's most recent ex boyfriend became a close sms friend.
it is only after consoling him..i realised that this aftermath i'm suffering from Apple's
is called karma.
but i don't think i did something to this extend but karma comes in the fold of three.
after all these nonsense..i began taking up the interest in Demonlogy.
the darker side..
The Left Hand Path.
the in midst of my journey to the dark...
i saw a friend..
a friend by the name of Jan..
she was torn and laying there motionless..
she was torn by a jackass whom i thought was one..
i was right..
using sympathy to gain her love.
how pathetic..
i can't vouch that my friend Jan is a very good lover/partner..
but i know she tries..
after speaking with her..
i only realised..
why is it that i can never find nice people like Jan , etc as girlfriends?
because i definitely know that the efforts these people put..
will not be wasted on me..
these people are my everything(good/close friends) but my girlfriend.
this is the reason why i disbelieve in the existence of God.
Jan.though i'm walking towards a lightless place..
i do not wish to see you dwell within the areas of these..
allow me to pick you up...
when you're ready to walk..
i'll once continue my journey towards the endless path of dark."

- Ov